Monday, June 17, 2013

CANCER JOURNEY #24: Sometimes I Can't Explain How I Feel - And Its Okay

Romans 8:6 - And in the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for [us] with groanings too deep for words. (NASB)

As I am nearing the end of my treatments (This coming Wednesday is my last one - yay!), I am so glad to see an end in sight! These past few treatments have been rough on me, both physically and emotionally. Physically - I have become so much weaker with fatigue and swelling all over my body, the palms of my hands are riddled with neuropathy, and my arm port is still uncomfortable. Emotionally - I have shed tears for unknown reasons. There are days when I am so overwhelmed with various thoughts, feelings and emotions that I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling to anyone, or to even know where to begin with a prayer.

A couple of weeks ago, the Lord knew I needed some encouragement, and that's when my dad e-mailed an old Dallas Holm song called, "Here We Are." Unknowingly to him at the time, the words spoke to me because, during those times when I don't have any words to say, I can at least sit quietly in the Lord's presence and KNOW He is there to help me through these difficult times. God understands my heart, and I know the Holy Spirit is present within to lovingly intercede for me when needed. I don't have to "worry" about finding the right words to say. Instead, I can just praise the Lord for all He has done for me, and for all He has brought me and my family through thus far.

Here is the Dallas Holm song. Click on the title to be taken to You Tube, or you can just read the words below...

Sung by: Dallas Holm

Here we are in your presence
Lifting holy hands to You
Here we are praising Jesus
For the things He's brought us through.

I don't have the words to tell You how I feel,
I just don't know what I can say
I'm not worthy to speak Your Holy Name,
Yet You tell me You love me just the same.

Here we are in Your presence
Lifting holy hands to You
Here we are praising Jesus
For the things He's brought us through.

I never thought that it could be this way,
And I never thought I'd be the one,
But You found me dying in my sin.
And You looked at me with love that took me in.

Here we are in Your presence
Lifting holy hands to You
Here we are praising Jesus
For the things He's brought us through.
For the things He's brought us through.

  
Dad and Me
Cancer Survivors

I love you, Dad. 



2 comments:

  1. Oh My Friend...this is awesome!
    You come from quite amazing 'stock' as well.
    I love Dallas Holms...went to his concerts whenever he was in Indy.
    We saw and talked to he and his wife a few yrs. ago. He had a concert at a friends church. Amazing folks, who are quite humble and still going on. She had cancer too and recovered doing even more for the Kingdom.
    This song...absolutely love it and sing it at our church. Very 'rich'.
    Lord bless! Thanks for sharing all of this with us.

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  2. That was so special. You have no idea how it touched my heart.
    I love you too.
    dad

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